Today is my birthday and it feels a little weird to be typing a post all about my birthday. In reality it truly is just another day. I (hopefully) have more days ahead of me, though I try my best to expect nothing. I do feel that it is important to reflect on the year of nineteen, and while reflecting, I realized how excited I am to make the best of my twenties.
It’s important to celebrate life everyday; not just a specific day once a year. Everyday that I make the conscious decision to get out of bed deserves a celebration. Celebrating the small things becomes extremely important when battling mental illness. I think that’s why today doesn’t feel any different. I mean when you think of the whole concept of gathering around a burning cake and singing an ominous chant, birthday parties sound a little strange. But it is nice to have my closet people over to just hangout and enjoy each other’s company.
I guess I could create this list of where I hope to be and what I hope to be doing in the next decade. But I honestly have no idea where I’ll be and what I’ll be doing. I just hope that I’m happy. I hope that I’m still choosing life, choosing to make everyday a good day. I hope that whatever it is I’m doing for my career, that I have passion and love. I really hope that I don’t go to work everyday dreading my job. I hope that I’ll still be making myself proud. I hope that I am full of love and light and positivity.
I’m happy to be alive. I’m happy to have another day here. I’m happy to be able to express love and gratitude. I’m happy that I have friends who love me unconditionally. I am happy. I am thankful. I’m thankful for the days I’ve had and the days to come. I’m thankful for all that God has blessed me with. I’m thankful for the people who choose to remain in my life. I am thankful to be alive.
Side note: I started reading the book Reclaiming Eve, per recommendation of my professor (who doubles as my mentor) and Y’ALL, the female empowerment has never been stronger. If I’m holding my head higher than usual, its because of this book.